Everything had settled throughout the pregnancy and by my 8month mark I had gotten use to this new life and what was ahead.
He was involved in everything pregnancy related. Although I was still in uncomfortable around him, a part of me felt bad for him because of what he told me about his childhood.
He told me that his dad left him when he was around 7 years old and was never seen again and that he was petrified that his soon to be born child wouldn’t have him around. He was convinced that I wouldn’t let him see his child so I guess I wanted to give him that bit of reassurance that I was not going to let that happen.
I was now use to being around him and was communicating with him even more. Read that sentence again( I was use to being around a person who made me uncomfortable)
What was that cycle doing to my mind? It was causing it rewire itself to being in someone’s uncomfortable presence that it became familiar with it and on the same frequency. My mind was becoming more aligned with a toxic mind without me realising as it was all happening on a subconscious level. This phase wasn’t causing me trauma. It was pulling me in though based on his story about his childhood.